Thursday, December 31, 2015

I am a walking contradiction

You know, I've been thinking about this for quite a while. I LOVE some things, and dislike pretty much identical things. It's weird. Let me tell you...

1: I don't really like peppermint, but I love those little pastel colored after dinner mints.
2: I'm afraid of the dark, but I love looking at the stars.
3: I love a clean house, but I don't clean it nearly enough.
4: I don't like clutter, but I have a really hard time letting go of things.
5: I love organized places, but I can't organize myself for squat.
6: I'm extremely shy, but I want to meet some friends! (I've been in this house for 2 1/2 years and have maybe 2 people I might be able to call a friend out here.)
7: I want to get involved in school stuff, but I'm terrified of the commitment.
8: I'm not a huge fan of black licorice, but I like Jegermeister.
9: I really want to get into photography, but I can't get the motivation to do it. Though I have gone through and come up with price lists and such.
10: I really don't like storms and they kick my anxiety into overdrive, but I would love to be a storm chaser.

I'm sure there are more, but that's all I can come up with right now!

Stay tuned for a "2015 Year in Review" post and a "Goals for 2016" post.

God bless!

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

I think it's time for me to do something.

Actually, I know it is. And I feel absolutely terrible that I haven't done it sooner.

See, I let my "social life", which is entirely online, completely consume me. I'm always checking my phone seeing if anything new has happened on BabyCenter, Instagram, games, and the many Facebook groups I'm in. It needs to slow way down, and it needs to happen now. My kids are starting to ask to play games on my old phone and the tablet I scored from my brother-in-law for super cheap. They're always asking to watch TV or movies. To me, it's unacceptable for them to get too much screen time, so why should it be any different for me? They learn from me. They mimic me. They look up to me for  guidance, so why not act myself, the way that I want them to act. Learn by example. Do as I DO. Not do as I SAY.

It's time to change. I have to do this. For me. For my kids. For my marriage.

It won't be easy for me, believe me. I find myself obsessing over things, and it really needs to stop. For now, I'm aiming for an hour a day consecutively of no screen time with myself. Maybe more! Once I get past that first hour, it's generally pretty easy to ignore the pull, but sometimes it gets the best of me. I don't need to walk around with my phone in my hand again. They don't need to learn that habit. Not now. Not at 2, 4, and 5 years old. They need to be running, playing, learning...I need that, too. So from here on out, I'm giving myself to them as much as I can. I'm going to work on my bravery (or lack thereof) with taking all three of them outside to play. We all need sun, fresh air, and play. I need them, and they need me. Not a distracted me. Just. ME. I'll try to blog about my successes, my failures, and I encourage you to do the same! I'll still be doing things I want to do because none of us deserve to lose ourselves in any way, but I'll definitely be focusing more on my children. After all...I was blessed with them, why not truly cherish that, and be thankful?

It starts today. Why don't you join me?

God bless,

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Ya know....

Instead of worrying about a piece of fabric, a little bit of metal, or some about we worry about our homeless and hungry???


Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Strange Happenings

Ever since we moved into this house, a few random little weird things have happened periodically. It doesn't really happen that often, but when it it hits like a brick wall!

One of the first things that I remember happening was within the first month of moving in. Alaina woke up really early (3:30 or 4 am), and I wasn't ready to get out of bed yet. I decided I would bring her to bed with me and snuggle for a while. Well, as soon as I was beside my bed, I got this huge whiff of cigarette smoke. It smelled so strong that I would have sworn there was someone standing right behind me with a lit cigarette. I turned around and there wasn't anyone there, so I crawled into bed until Alaina went to sleep. I definitely did not go back to sleep though!

A "recurring" thing we have actually relates to a puzzle that the kids have had for quite some time. It's one of those farm animal sound puzzles. Each piece makes a specific sound - cat, horse, cow, duck, etc. If the pieces don't get put back in for an extended period of time, it will make noise. Not a big deal now that we understand what's going on. However...within the first few months of being here, one of the pieces got left out, and at about 9 pm, when all the kids were in bed, but we were still up, it just started meowing. Michael and I looked at each other thinking "What. the. heck". Now it's an ongoing joke, and we've started yelling "Bob!!!" whenever it makes noise. Turning off the dining room light makes it react, too. It's kind of funny now, but that first time...holy cow!

A few weeks ago, I was sitting at the bus stop with all the kids waiting for Julia's bus to come. I could tell that Julia wasn't feeling well, and kept asking if she wanted to stay home. She kept saying 'no', but I knew better. We sat there waiting for about 5 minutes, and something just felt off. I made a comment that maybe we should just go back home, and Justin said "We can't, mommy." So I asked him why and he said "Because there's something behind us.". That combined with my "off" feeling, and what I'm guessing was a perfectly timed gust of wind that actually rocked my car forward, I was a bit freaked out. Right when the bus was due to arrive (thank goodness she was late), Julia said "Mommy, I don't feel good. I want to stay home." I didn't argue, and got the car parked before the bus came down the hill.

Yesterday morning (March 2) was quite possibly one of thee strangest things to have happened. Once again, Alaina had woken up way too early (about 4:30 am), and I went into the girls' bedroom to get her calmed down and back to sleep. I crawled back into bed around 4:40, and laid there thinking 'should I just get up? My alarm is going to go off soon...". I decided to just stay in bed, and closed my eyes. About 2 minutes later, I am about 98% sure that I was not asleep yet, I heard what sounded like a man's voice, inside my house, yell "NO!!!". Needless to say I did not go back to sleep...

What kind of strange things have happened in your house? If any.

God bless!

Saturday, February 14, 2015

My "50 Shades of Grey" Post

You know, I really wanted to stay out of all of the drama (I'm using that word loosely), because I believe everyone is allowed to make their own decisions, and everyone can form their own opinions. I want to share mine because frankly, I'm tired of both sides right now.

50 Shades of Gray. Anastasia Steele. Christian Grey. A book. Now a movie. FICTION. It's not real. It's a story. Yes, it has an extremely sexual story line. Yes, it's written about BDSM. But it's just a story. And personally, I enjoyed the books! Does that make me any less of a Christian woman? No. Does it make me a bad person? No. Does it mean I agree with what was written and portrayed in the book? Gosh no. But you know what? I'm not judging anyone if they do agree with what's in the book. Know why? It's their choice. Heck, if someone is into actually doing that kind of stuff, it's their choice. I'm not going to judge them or shun them because of how they live their lives. More power to them, really!

I love reading. I've read some really great books in the past. Some are about violent crimes, murders, rapes, prostitution, you name it. I enjoyed reading all of them! It doesn't make me any less of a person. My life. My choice.

I'm really tired of seeing people rip each other down because "Oh my GOSH!!! Suzie doesn't agree with my view point and she read those books!" Or "Oh my GOSH!!! Did you see that Jane doesn't raise her kids the way I do?!?!" Shame on them, right? No, more like shame on you for pushing your agenda on others. There's a difference between believing what you believe, sharing what you believe, and shaming others for not believing or doing what you do. My one hang up, the one thing I will tell people that they're doing wrong is when they're putting their babies in their car seats the wrong way. It breaks my heart to see them unsafe, but that's not what this point is about.

Anyways. Whether or not you read the books (I did!), or if you're going to see the movie (I probably won't), I hope you enjoy your freedom of choice, and if you liked the books, good for you! If you enjoy the movie, good for you!

God bless!

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Been contemplating...

If you have done a Joy Jar in the past, would you consider sharing the snippits on a blog post? Is that something you (my readers) would be interested in reading? I think maybe it would help some to see what positive/happy things others remember, but I'm not sure.

What do you think?

God bless,

Monday, January 19, 2015

It happened again...

I caught myself smiling while driving the other day! An entire 25 minute drive each direction.

That's all. :-)


Sunday, January 4, 2015

2014 Year In Review

Well, another year is winding down, and since I've already shared my goals for 2015, I guess it's time to share my 2014 year in review! Past years can be found here: 2013, 2012, 2010, 2009,

I'm not sure if I'll have anything really note-worthy for every single month, but I'm going to try!

It was decided that Justin was officially day time potty trained.
Julia and I tackled the "kangaroo" puzzle that Jennie bought me while on her World Youth Day trip in Australia.

The generator that we bought (thanks to the week long power outage due to this storm) came in! Yay!
I signed up as a Wildtree sales rep. The stuff is delicious!

Julia went to her first daddy daughter dance with Michael.

I turned 33. Whoop!

Julia turned FOUR!!! (I'm still trying to figure out how time goes so fast...)

Alaina turned ONE!!! (Again, with the time thing...)

I managed to get back on the treadmill - for a little while at least.

Julia received the "Star Student" and "Star of the Month" award in gymnastics.

My step-mom wound up in the ICU on life support. Thanks be to God that she recovered!
Alaina started walking...yikes!
I hosted a "Stop 'N Shop" vendor type event in my home. It was fun, but the turn out was pretty dismal.

I donated my hair to Wigz4Kids!

Michael and I took a much needed vacation for our 5 year wedding anniversary. It was amazing.

We found out that we qualified for the GSRP program for Julia!

Michael turned 34.
We found a new pediatrician and family doctor. After many multiple-hours-long waits with the old doctor, it was time.
Alaina finally got her third and fourth tooth - at 14 1/2 months old.
Turtle watch began.

I was introduced - and blew through - the Hunger Games books. They were so good!
We had a baby deer!

Justin turned THREE!!! (Hello, time?!?!!)

I was introduced to - and blew through - The Twilight Saga.
I decided to walk away from the Wildtree biz. It made me sad, but the support just wasn't there.
Michael accepted a job with a new company. It was a much better opportunity for our family, but he wound up taking a pretty significant pay cut.
The bench that we had sitting down by the pond when we moved into this house was "the bench" from the dream I had when Adam paid me a visit.

We all went to "Protect and Serve Day" in town. There were lots of cool things to do and check out there!
Michael started his new job.
The great Robin Williams committed suicide. RIP.
We discovered that the poison ivy at the bottom of the hill had made it's way to the top of the hill.
We met Julia's preschool teacher, and saw the room that she would be in.

The epic spider battle ensued. Well. It was one very large spider between the screen and glass of the living room window. But I beat it!
I was introduced to - and blew through - the Divergent series.
Polka fest!

Julia started preschool!

Justin had his first dentist appointment.

We got to go to another Tigers game thanks to Michael's brother! Said game just so happened to end with the Tigers being the ALC champs!

I did a road rally through my old church with some awesome ladies. It was so fun!

We finally got the trim taken out of the third bathroom.
I started crocheting again :-)

Julia had her first field trip, and I took all three kids to it.


I was thrown into the abyss of nail stamping, and I haven't looked back!

I was gifted a speedlight for my camera. Holy moly.
I attempted to do the "30 days of thanks" again and failed. Miserably.
PHONE PROBLEMS!!! It was semi-amusing hearing someone else's conversation, but totally annoying at the same time.

I hosted my first ever cookie exchange. It was so fun! Hoping it becomes an annual thing. :-)
I won the Bucket Fillers, Inc. giveaway that was hosted by Mrs. Weber's Neighborhood! Exciting!!!

I decided to co-administrate the P52 group that I've been a part of for the last few years for the 2015 year. Here's hoping I can stick with it this time!
Julia read a STOP sign on our way to her second field trip (Elf on Ice). *tear*

Julia started riding the bus!!! My little big girl is growing up...

I saw a movie - The Mocking Jay Part 1 - in a theater! For the first time in seven years.

So, there you have it! My year in review. How was your year? Was it what you hoped it would be?
God bless,