What's the deal??

Ok, I don't get it...there are certain things you can order as an option on a vehicle, and some things that are standard. Seat belts and turn signals for example are standard...that's cause you're supposed to use them! So why in the world do people insist on not using their turn signal?? The seat belts...hey, that's your prerogative. If you want to die in a car accident, it's all you, but PLEASE use the little blinking light to let people know that you're turning - especially if there's someone waiting to pull out where you're turning in. And for pete's sake use it when you're changing lanes! COME ON! It's sooooo annoying...oh well, nothing I can do about it but vent...

On a more positive note...a little less than 17 months until me and Cletus get married! Yay!

~Peanut


“Courtesy is a small act but it packs a mighty wallop”
-Unknown

And So the Adventure Continues...

Well, I've started to go cross-eyed from staring at my computer screen for so long today. I have work coming out my ears right now, but I'm plugging away!! As of today, I have 52 days until my wedding dress comes in, and only 8 work days until I get a whole week and a half off for Christmas!!

Yesterday was the 9 month mark with Cletus. I've never ever ever been happier, and I know that the next year and a half is going to fly by with all the wedding planning we will be doing!!! I love you Cletus!! Thank you for asking me to be your wife... :-)

~Peanut


“We're never so vulnerable than when we trust someone - but paradoxically, if we cannot trust, neither can we find love or joy”
-Walter Anderson

Self Discovery, etc.

So the last couple of weeks have made me realize a lot of things...

1) I've been too stubborn and selfish over the last month. I'm working on that.
2) I realized that traveling is definately on my top 5 list of favorite things to do. All I can think about is where I want to go next.
3) Past relationships have no place in my life right now...
4) Family - no matter where they are - are the most important thing...PERIOD.
5) Going through a religious class because you want to do it only makes it better.
6) Going through said class with the man of your dreams makes it fantastic.
7) I procrastinate way too much...Ireland pictures are on the computer, they're coming...be patient..

Anyhoo...enough rambling...

~Peanut


"If it weren't for the last minute, I wouldn't get anything done."
-Author Unknown

Happy Thanksgiving!!

So, here we are...tomorrow is Thanksgiving! :-) Where did the year go??? It felt like 3 weeks ago, I had just met Cletus, 2 weeks ago my mom and I bought tickets to Ireland...and just last week we came home and Cletus proposed! Where did the time go??? Oh well, it's definately been a good year. I'm anxious to see what next year will bring, and to decorate for Christmas!!! Yippeee!!!

Happy Thanksgiving, and Merry Christmas too!! Even thought it's a little early :-)

~Peanut


"The toughest part of getting to the top of the ladder is getting through the crowd at the bottom."
-Anonymous

On Life and Wedding Planning

So, life right now is good...fantastic actually! Still like my job, got a roof over my head that I can pay for on my own, and a car that gets me from a to b (although it's in desperate need of gas right now). Not to mention the greatest guy in the world is mine all mine!! I really feel like I am where I'm supposed to be. I feel right about everything right now. I've also been going to church regularly which is good.

As for the wedding planning....don't ever let anyone tell you that it's not stressful. Unless of course you make $10,000 a month! WHEW!!! It will all be worth it, and I know the stress is going to be short term, but damn! We've kinda got a date narrowed down, and we have a couple more reception sites to check out, and after that, it should be smoooooth sailing!

Cletus - I can't wait to be able to introduce you as my husband :-) I love you!!!!!

~Peanut


“Passion is the quickest to develop, and the quickest to fade. Intimacy develops more slowly, and commitment more gradually still.”
-Robert Sternberg

Wanna Know a Secret??

Another long one...and I'll prolly just be rambling....

So, I went to Ireland for a week. Had an absolute blast with my mom!! The scenery was beautiful, the people were fun to listen to, and I ordered some Waterford Crystal...heheheeeee Pictures still to come...

The best part was when I got home though. Cletus was supposed to pick me up at baggage claim at the airport, but I had to have him meet me at my moms cause she was sick so I drove her home. He seemed pretty bummed about it, but agreed. He was there when we got there and it was soooo good to see him!!! He gave me the biggest, snuggliest hug yet. It was great.....we only hung out at my moms for about 15 minutes before heading back to my place. When we got there, I grabbed my suitcase, and he said 'I'll get your other bag, just meet me at the door.' I stood there at the door waiting for him, and wondered why he was carrying it in front of him....anyhoo...

When we got inside, he suggested I take my stuff to my room and I did cause I didn't want it sitting in front of my door for a week - yes, I'm lazy like that. Well!!!! When I came back out, I gave him a hug, he said "I love you" so I said "I love you too". Then, this one kinda got me... he said "Yeah, how much do you love me?" HUH?????? A lot, why??? Then he grabbed my left hand, got down on one knee, pulled out a ring and said "Will you marry me?" AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!! WHAT???!!!! "Yes!"

So, yeah...the icing on the cake was getting engaged to the bestest, bestest, bestest guy in the whole world!! I love you Cletus!!!! Can't wait for the rest of our lives together :-)


~Peanut

"The best way to predict the future is to invent it."
-Alan Kay

At A Loss For Words...

Ok, so not really.....

Ireland was great!!! I will fill you all in shortly, but I have to get some work done before I leave today...heheheee photos and stories about the trip will soon follow. I have almost 300 pictures to go through and organize though, so it might take a little while.


~Peanut

“An ounce of performance is worth pounds of promises.”
-Mae West

Case of the Monday's

Yeah...it's Monday...BLAH!!

That is all.

~Peanut


"It is a mistake to try to look too far ahead. The chain of destiny can only be grasped one link at a time."
-Sir Winston Churchill

What I Want Is What I’ve Got

Just a little fair warning, this one may be long!

This weekend was fantastic! Saturday was spent in lines for some roller coasters at Cedar Point with my niece. Sunday, Cletus and I went to church, went for a bike ride at Orion Oaks, then went to his place to watch some football and hang out.

While at Cedar Point, I messaged Cletus back and forth throughout the day just to say hi, or let him know the plans for the day, and what time I might be home. Well, after 7 hours of practically running around the park, Cass and I called it a day. I called Cletus and said, “I should be home around 11, 11:30 if you want to be there. If not, that’s fine too.” Well, he decided to meet me at my place. When I walked in the door after dropping Cassandra off, Cletus was laying on my couch in jeans and a plain white t-shirt, and it got me thinking…

A while back, I started thinking about what I really want in a man. Here’s what I came up with:
I wanted a guy who would listen to me, talk to me, respect me, be honest with me, and treat me like his queen – like the most important part of his life. Someone that could look sexy in jeans and a plain white t-shirt, and cleans up nice. A guy that would do anything to make me happy, appreciate me, cherish me, and most of all, LOVE ME.

Well folks, I have all that and more with Cletus. When I walked through that door Saturday night, I thought “What a beautiful person inside and out. How did I manage to land this one?!?” He’s so perfect for me…quite literally my other half. I’m so incredibly totally and completely in love with this man. So much more than I ever thought possible… It almost brought tears to my eyes to think about what he has done for me. Sure we’ve had a few rough times, but we’ve worked through it and it only makes me love him that much more…if that’s even possible!!

I’ve had a few long-term relationships that I thought were love…man, was I wrong. Maybe it was, but not nearly as strong as this. I see him, I smile. I think of him, I smile. I hear his voice, I smile. I get a message from him, I smile. He completes me. 100%. I have no regrets about my past anymore. Everything that happened to me only happened to bring me to him. I wanted so badly for things to work out with one person, but it wasn’t meant to be. To quote a country song: “Some of God’s greatest gifts are unanswered prayers.” I’m so thankful that things have gone the way they have for me. If my life had been on a different path, I might not have met my true love…

I love you Cletus
~Peanut


"I'd go hungry I'd go black and blue. I'd go crawling down the avenue. There aint nothing that I wouldn’t do. To make you feel my love. Go to the ends of the earth for you. Make you happy, make your dreams come true. To make you feel my love."
-Garth Brooks

To Mamaw, With Love

5 years ago today, you lost your fight for life. I miss you greatly, and so does everyone else. I think about you every day at work. Want to know why? I work in accounting! :-) I know you’re up there watching over me, all of us. I recently read a book called “For One More Day” by Mitch Albom. It’s about a guy who gets into a car accident and gets to spend one more day with his mother (I know you're not my mom, but you're my mamaw!). The whole time I read that book, I thought of you and how much I would love to see you again. I know I will eventually…

I know I speak for everyone when I say, we love you Mamaw…
Love always,

~Peanut (a.k.a Stacy)


"God pours life into death and death into life without a drop being spilled."
-Author Unknown

When it’s good…

When it’s good, it’s fantastic, and I’ve realized that when it’s bad…it’s not really that bad. Life will go on!! Too many people dwell on all the negative in the world and in their lives. Once in a while, it’s healthy…but do it all the time and you’ll sink into depression and be miserable. I’ve been through the bad and the good. I’ve been 3 months behind on payments, had accounts sent to collections, had my car repossessed, been broken up with, used, cheated on, and gotten not-so-good medical news. But you know something?? I got through it, mostly because of the people in my life that have stuck beside me through thick and thin.

I am so grateful for my family, all of my friends – old and new. And I’m so thankful that I have that someone special to spend my time with. I love you Cletus!!

~Peanut


“Happiness comes when your work and words are of benefit to yourself and others.”
-Buddha

Please Explain

What's wrong witht the world today???

"NEW YORK (AP) -- Former referee Tim Donaghy pleaded guilty to two felony charges Wednesday in an NBA betting scandal that rocked the league and raised questions about the integrity of games.

Donaghy faces a maximum of 25 years in prison when he is sentenced for conspiracy to engage in wire fraud and transmitting wagering information through interstate commerce. He was released on a $250,000 bond."

Ok...so a basketball referee can get up to 25 years in prison for screwing with a stupid game (I know I'll hit a nerve there), but a convicted child molester only gets 3 years?????????????

What the fuck????

~Peanut


"Where justice is denied, where poverty is enforced, where ignorance prevails, and where any one class is made to feel that society is an organized conspiracy to oppress, rob and degrade them, neither persons nor property will be safe."
-Frederick Douglass

Yay!

So, I finally got back out on the trails!! It's been a little over a year since I last rode, and MAN did it feel good! Cletus got a new bike, and we went for a ride yesterday. We stayed on the easy 2-track trails yesterday (gotta break him in easy ya know!), but today, we rode part of the mountain bike trails. The slightly less technical/difficult part called The Pines. It was a lot of fun!! Next time, we may actually tackle half the route! I love biking!! Great weekend, great Monday (for the first time in a looooong time)!

~Peanut

"If you don't think every day is a good day, just try missing one."
-Cavett Robert

A Few 'Firsts' For Me

So, yesterday, I spent about half of my day at Beaumont Hospital in Royal Oak. My list of firsts:
First time being in a hospital as the patient.
First time having a tube crammed down my throat.
First time wearing a hospital gown.
First time in a wheelchair after the procedure.
First time having Vicodin prescribed to me (just in case).
I'm sure there's more...but I can't think of them now.

I'm good though! No problems, I'm healthy. Nothing major...don't worry! :-)

~Peanut


"Sometimes it’s hard to make a change; sometimes there’s a lesson to be learned; and sometimes, we just don’t want to admit we’ve made a mistake. Been there / done that!!"
-My Mom!

This weekend...

Well, I'll actually start with Friday. I decided that I really like this whole 'wireless oakland' thing, even though I can't get a signal at my apartment (which is in Oakland county...go figure). But I do get a strong enough signal in the conference room at work, so my lunch is now fully occupied :-)

Saturday, the day was spent at Cedar Point with Cletus, and my 10 year old niece Cassandra. The weather was fantastic!! Sunny and 75* all day. Couldn't have asked for better weather. Oh, and fyi...it's just as entertaining to watch a 27 year old guy riding roller coasters as it is to watch a 10 year old girl!! I gotta give props to both of them. They both got on Millennium Force with me! Yay! Me and Cletus rode the Cork Screw, but Cassandra was just a little dehydrated...it was kinda scary for me to see her that way, but she bounced right back with a little food and water in her system! We also rode Mean Streak, Gemini, Mantis, Raptor, Iron Dragon (staple ride...gotta do it), Magnum, Mine Ride, Blue Streak (another staple ride...), Thunder Canyon, the Sky Ride (cause we were sick of walking), and of course, the train. We caught up with the Carousel at the end of the day too. Cedar Point is awesome! I want to go back again before the end of this season so Cletus and I can ride Top Thrill Dragster and Maverick.

Sunday...well, Sunday was fantastic. That is all. Just fantastic.....

~Peanut


“Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”
-James Dean

WWHHHHEEEEEE!!!

That's what I'll be screaming on Saturday!! Yes, Cletus and I are taking my neice to Cedar Point! My brother and another neice might tag along too. Should be goooooooood times! I'm not really looking forward to getting up at 530 in the morning, but it will be SO worth it!

On another 'travel' note...3 months and 14 days til I go to IRELAND!!! Yay!

~Peanut


"Certainly, travel is more than the seeing of sights; it is a change that goes on, deep and permanent, in the ideas of living."
-Miriam Beard

Wednesday fun!

So yeah...I can add putt putt to my list of 'wins'......
Bowling:
Cletus - 5???? I don't know...I lost count...
Peanut - 2 Yeah, that was a while ago, but it still feels good!!
Putt Putt:
Peanut - 1
Cletus - 0
I won...but I think I got lucky. I beat him by 6. Some of those holes were tough! It was fun though, and we got ice cream after, so it was all good.
I'm going to bed...it's late...

~Peanut



“Nothing builds self-esteem and self-confidence like accomplishment.”
-Thomas Carlyle

Another Poem

I wrote this one about 6 years ago I think....hope you like :-)


With You

Baby I'm just overwhelmed, there's just so much to do
I feel like I don't have time to be alone with you
There's always other people, other things we need to do
I need to find some EXTRA time, to be alone with you
I think I'll always wonder, how we've ended up so well
I LOVE YOU very deeply, and you love me, I can tell
You fill my heart with happiness, I'm so complete with you
I might could spend my life alone,
Just all alone
WITH YOU.


~Peanut


"Time is the fire in which we burn."
-Delmore Schwartz

Lost and Found

The last few months for me have been at the very least, a whirlwind. I met my wonderful boyfriend, and have enjoyed every minute I’ve shared with him, my mom and I decided we are going to Ireland in October, and numerous other things that have happened to make it just one big…well…mess I guess. Most of the things that have happened in the last couple of weeks will be left unsaid, but note the fact that I felt lost within my own life. I was scared, excited, bummed out, happy, grateful, thankful, and reluctant all at the same time. The only person really holding me together was Cletus. If it weren’t for him, I don’t know where I would be right now. I’ve started going to church again, and that’s where the ‘Found’ comes into play. I hadn’t been to church, except for a couple of times with Zach in high school, for probably at least 10 years. It was somewhat unnerving being in a church for something other than a family members or friends wedding, but I’ve gotten comfortable with it. I’ve also realized that there were 2 things missing in my life, and I’ve found them both…Last night, I did something I haven’t done in a long time…

~Peanut


"For the first time in a long time she bowed her head to pray. She said I'm sorry for the way I've been livin' my life. I know I've got to change, so from now on tonight, Jesus take the wheel."
-Carrie Underwood

Support Pimpin

I was on my way to the bank yesterday when I saw something that totally rubbed me the wrong way. I'm all about supporting our troops in Iraq, and everywhere else they are. I am very thankful that there are people in this country willing to die so I and my family can be happy. I even have a few of those ribbon magnets. One is green camouflauge colored, and I have a couple of yellow ones that have a SeaBee in the middle, but they all say "Support Our Troops". My sister was in the Navy, and her husband still is. I don't have them on my car because one got stolen. Now, here's where my gripe comes in...those magnets (if I'm not mistaken) were created for the troops originally. So when I saw this one on the car in front of me yesterday, I wanted to get out of my car and give the driver an earful. "Support Pimpin" on a ribbon magnet???? Come on. There are people dying so this dummy can be a smart ass...I guess I just don't see the humor. Oh well, that's my gripe.

~Peanut


"You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the think, which you think you cannon do.
-Elanor Roosevelt

Happy Birthday Cletus!

Yep, it's Cletus' birthday today! 6 more months, and he'll officially be in his late 20's! ::giggle::

Happy Birthday hun!!

~Peanut


"Growing old is mandatory; growing up is optional."
-Chili Davis

For your reading pleasure...

Here are a couple of things I've written in the last month. I wrote both of them for a very special someone in my life :)


A World Of My Own

I've fought, I've struggled,
I've won and I've lost.
This won't be the first time
My heart is the cost.
I'm giving in to you,
I'm giving up for me.
You're always in my mind...
You make me feel free.
Your touch, your eyes,
Your smile, your kiss.
Every day I think'
I could get used to this'
You are who you are,
And so far...it's so good.
You make me feel safe
Like I know I should.
In a world of my own
I smile all day,
Just thinking of you
In the best possible way



Have You...

Ever thought "that someone" was impossible to find?
Ever had a day go by with only one thought in your mind?
Ever thought you'd get so much for your heart in exchange?
Ever felt so needed that you never wanted it to change?
Ever met that special someone and cared for them so much?
Ever had something to say but didn't want to rush?
Ever held that persons hand or hugged them really tight?
Ever thought that nothing else could ever be more right?
Ever wondered if it's really as beautiful as it seems?
Ever thought your life was so much better than your dreams?

Ever wanted everything and nothing all at once?



Hope you like them.

~Peanut



“Trust in dreams, for in them is hidden the gate to eternity.”
-Kahlil Gibran

So thankful

I think I am happier right now then I have ever been. Everything is right for me…I’m very grateful for the broken road that brought me to this point in my life. I truly feel that I am where I am meant to be.

I love my job (finally!!). 2 ½ years ago, after 5 years of retail, I finally landed a job working for a fantastic company in the accounting department. Some may look at Data Entry as a plain, boring, mundane job, but I love it, and I’m really good at it.

I like where I live, aside from some pretty crappy neighbors. I like the area, and the apartment itself, so no major complaints from me!

There are other things that play into this complete happiness, but they’re of a little more personal matter, and are better left unsaid…except this one…

Cletus – You are amazing. I would do anything for you, as I know you would do for me. I am so happy that we met. I can’t, nor do I want to imagine my life without you in it. You’ve shown me that true feelings really can be left unspoken, but still be known. I never knew that feeling so strongly about one person was possible. I don’t know where I would be right now if it wasn’t for you. I cherish every minute I spend with you, and I look forward to seeing you when we are apart. I never want to let you go and I will do whatever it takes to keep you in my life for a very long time. To quote you… “You have something of mine, and I don’t want it back.” Thank you, for everything.

~Peanut


"We fail more often by timidity than by over-daring."
-David Grayson

What a weekend...

Wow. That's about all I can say. I had the absolute best weekend...and it's all thanks to Cletus and his peeps!! Especially when I finally beat him bowling ::giggle:: Yes, that's right...I beat him fair and square! There were witnesses...
You're right Cletus, they keep getting better and better...but I don't know how we're going to top this one!

~Peanut


"Experience is not what happens to a man; it is what a man does with what happens to him."
-Aldous Huxley

Peanuts Guidelines

Ok…I’ve about had it…there are a few things that will get you on, or close to being on my shitlist real fast…

1) Don’t fuckin eavesdrop on my conversations.
2) If someone asks me for help, they’re asking me, not you…ME. Stay the fuck out.
3) Don’t interrupt me.
4) If I want your opinion, I’ll ask you for it, otherwise keep it to yourself.
5) I don’t want a 30 min explanation for a yes or no answer.
6) Don’t do my shit for me unless I ask for your help.

I can be your best friend, or your worst enemy…you decide.

~Peanut

“The journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step.”
-Lao Tzu

3 more days...

This past weekend was so much fun. Didn't really do much of anything, but it was fantastic. Did a little running, watched some fantastic Hockey action, played some cards, ate some yummy bbq chicken and Cletus and I started our own game heheheeee I WILL win next time!!!

This weekend will be just as good, if not better. I am sure of it!

I'm so bored right now...I'm surprised I don't have a billion paper cuts. I've been through 6 lateral file drawers full of files...oh well...easy money right?


~Peanut


"To dare is to lose one's footing momentarily. To not dare is to lose oneself."
-Soren Kierkegaard

It's good to be here!!!

Thank you Peanut for adding me to your blog. I will try to post some good clean fun stuff, not the stuff I post on my blog. Toodles.

People

I don't get it...maybe I was just raised well, but I can't understand why people can be so mean and inconsiderate.

For example:
If you live in an apartment, common knowledge would tell you to not blast your tv/radio, or that the people below you can hear you running rampant at all hours of the day or night. Or that singing (screaming/yelling/whatever) at 3 a.m. is not very polite. Most people don't want to hear that shit! Especially if they have to be up in the next few hours. C'mon!

People who start rumors, or talk behind your back are another thing. I've dealt with this first hand in a few separate instances. I don't like it, I don't do it. I used to, but it cost me a very good friend because she misinterpreted what I said directly to her as me trying to start shit about her. I told her as a friend that people were saying mean things, and she felt like I was attacking her. Well, I wasn't, and I'm very sorry to her for that. I would love to be able to keep in touch with her as the friends we started out being, but that will probably never happen. Oh well. Life goes on. People that talk about me however, need to just say it to my face. I can handle it better that way.

Politeness and general courtesy seems to have been stripped from most people in the country. I don't know why, but kids are more rude these days then when I was young. Believe me, my kids are going to be raised with the same morals and respect that I was. My parents did a fantastic job with me and my siblings, and I will be very happy if my kids turn out even half as good as we all did!!

Anyhoo...I gotta get back to work. Lunch is over.

~Peanut

The countdown is on!

Ok, some of you know this, some of you don't...

I'm going to Ireland! Yay! I can't wait. I'm soooo excited!!! 5 months to go, and I'll be spending a whole week overseas. I've only been out of the country once - not counting Canada, they don't count anyways - but that was Cancun in January of this year. It was so fun, gorgeous weather, lots of fun, lots of beer, a few Margaritas, couple road trips, and fun people. I just can't wait to head to Ireland to check out some of my family history!

Stay tuned for updates!

~Peanut

ok ok...

So I'm weak...I gave in...what can I say!

Stop back every once in a while. Check out my writings, complaints, all the crap I feel like writing. If you don't like it...not my problem! Ha! There will be poetry and probably lots of it. Maybe some stories, but probably mostly random ramblings.


~Peanut